Melatonin, it works and it’s not a drug. 

My feet are heavy and my eyes are too, but I can’t stop thinking about you

xxsarahrosexx:

I fucking hate you, let my mind rest. Oh wait I forgot you’re not corporative no matter what. Ps. I hate you

Post.5. Diary of an Insomniac. Time: 4:46am. 

Yes, really.

Here I am

Sitting down

Looking at my big screen TV; not even on.

and eating frosted flakes stright from the bag…with my hand.

God, I feel so primitive. 

I can’t do this, I have so much work to do and I don’t know how or where to start.

What I do know is: I don’t have any short term options

All I can do is either take something that will make me miss my classes, 

or stay awake through it all, possibly for the next 1-2 days. 

When I’m done with this year, I’m going to try some herbal and home remedies for sleep, I’ve been trying a few things out for relaxation lately. 

I’m actually surprised how it’s 4:43 am and my mind is racing so much. UGH

I don’t even have any milk

Post.4. Diary of an Insomniac

So I was invited to a party last night at my friends apartment, it was supposed to be the last party of the semester before finals. But I havne’t slept in 3 days and decided not to go. I went home and exercised a little, took anxiety meds…a little more than what I was supposed to take then instantly passed out on my bean bag. 

This is good

I just woke up at 3pm. Still feeling tired but probably because the bean bag is not so comfortable. It’s so nice out and I’m so glad I slept, I might go bike a little bit.

Hooray for not feeling emo and actually sleeping!

Sleep > Party

ps: I love my 5 followers <3 :P

Post 3.5

It’s 2:26 am, I feel very energetic. It really doesn’t matter what the time is though, I’ve gotten used to having different kind of energy levels throughout the day, but today in particular I think I’m feeling better. I kind of want to go outside but it’s cold, I think I’m going to watch Donnie Darko - I’ve been waiting for a time where I actually can pay attention. I think it may have been the doughnuts I ate. Sugar helps.

I do get bored. I am very tired and feel lazy.

School is impossible because I feel like I’m a mindless zombie in class and I absorb nothing, I laugh at the notes I take, I might upload them here because they are ridiculous.

about the extra time, I used to tell my friends:

“I technically live longer than you do since I sleep less, I exist and live more, don’t I?

but it’s not true, it’s just something I tell myself to make me feel better. 

Ambien is fucking terrible. It does work but almost too well - and if I were to wake up early I suffer the major side effects. If you were to ever take ambien, make sure you have 10 hours of empty time and quietness so you can actually sleep. If you wake up too early you’ll have memory problems, for fuck’s sake it’s used by rapists!! they should just take it off the market. You could literally wake up, drive off into another town, and then not remember why you are there or how you got there. 

and my thoughts? often philosophical, probably from taking the philosophy class, before that I don’t remember. Usually leading to no answers, just more and more questions, the more I think, the more doors are opened to more thoughts and more confusions. 

No. it’s been suggested by a family member but I never took it seriously. I’ll look into it. I saw a TV show, I think it was called a thousand ways to die and it had a person fall off the bed and after trying to reach his/her phone and all the needles punctured her - I’ve been afraid ever since.